LT

L is an emotion that can consume a person at anytime whether it is toward a person or thing. T is a battle field that contains L and is best friends with T.

Have you figured out what L and T are? * cues Jeopardy music*

Alright times up what was you guess was it Love and Trust? That would be an amazing guess, but not quite. ,

L stands for Lust and T stands for Temptation.

For a while now I have been battling with lustful thoughts and actions. It is easy to lust after someone or something without being aware of that lust, but fortunately I am aware of it, but the problem is how to deal with it.

I don't act on my lust which is good I guess, but the feelings remain and they are strong. It is hard because temptation is always around the corner.

The Bible tells us that we can't serve two masters because you will always love one more than the other. I am currently serving two masters and I am not hugging God as closely as I should. I am consciously serving the devil and because I have done it so long, when it has come to my lust, that I no longer see a problem with it.

However, I know there is a problem, no matter how desensitized I have become to that inner voice, I know something is wrong.

Maybe pride should be added because I put myself in situations just to see whether I would fall or not and I always fall because I am not spiritually strong.

This is the first time I have admitted how spiritually weak I am. I am not strong enough in my spirituality, rather than elevate I am dissenting in my spiritual warfare.

I call God father, but I don't do as he asks, heed his messages, take his advice, or follow his rules, I can give everyone else biblical advice, yet I cannot apply it to my life.

I could boast how this new year will be different and stuff, but I truly hope it will be a year where I can truly struggle and try to find my spiritual center. Lust, although it feels good, isn't a friend of mine, but an enemy.

I have to be the one to deprogram myself in many ways and not just every new year, but maybe every 6 months.

Pray for me and pray with me, its going to be an uphill battler that hopefully my father will forgive me and acknowledge my trying.

Dealing with Hurtful People

There are always people who make you want to back hand them. Sometimes even punch them because they feel as though they can talk to people however they want and still be treated with kindness. News flash its not that kind of party.

But its important to shake your head at them. There is no need to become violent with them it is enough to take them for face value and treat them as such. I know this message is contradicting to how Jesus treated his traitors especially Judas.

The Lord knew that Judas would give him to his enemies for a bag of coins, but he continued to break bread with him, Jesus never turned his back on him or sneered at him. But one thing that is certain is that Jesus was hurt deeply.

On my journey to do what is right I find it hard to deal with people who hurt me. I refuse do deal with people that want to hurt me, so I keep them at arms length in every way possible. I am not the type of person that can turn my emotions on and off; its one or the other. I either feel indifferent toward you or I care about you there is rarely an in between when it comes to me.

It has been said that the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference and I believe that because whether you love someone or hate them, emotions are involved, but when you are indifferent to someone there is a lack of emotion toward that person, you can hurt them without caring as to how they will feel about it. When you don't care about someone than you write that person off and rarely look back.

This is the way I usually deal with people, I emotionally cut them off from me. I can do this without a second thought and once I have done it, its hard to undo it; maybe that's why I'm trying hard not to do it, but old habits are a struggle to break.

Hopefully God will help me to work on this habit of mine, since he is the only one that can cause change. For now until I achieve it, I will simply keep people at arm length and give them a blank stare when they question why I am not close with them.

God is Very Much a Father

Okay you know the saying becareful what you ask for? Yeah well I've noticed something about myself, I ask for too dang-on much stuff and most of it is ridiculous! I did something very stupid and now its about to be out there. (No nothing crazy get your mind out that gutter!)
I wanted to get info on something and I got more than I bargained for. I wish I could let the whole situation with the guy go, but something in me (that stupid something) refuses to let sleeping dogs lay.
I wish I could drop it but I've already shown my afro so I might as well deal with everything that's going to come at me. When God says to leave something alone he means it, but when you keep asking, he will give it to you and watch you mess up horribly, but the best thing, he will sustain you through it no matter what.
So I'm getting my punishment soon from him, I can feel it, but he will be gentle with it, I hope :/

Footprints in the Sand

I got this poem in an e-mail, it is definitely not mine, and it struck a cord in me, because if it was me I would have the same questions and I would want to hear the same words from God. I feel as though this poem is the best way to start of this blog, and this picture is my favorite, enjoy. God bless.

Footprints in the Sand

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand:

one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

he looked back at the footprints in the sand.

He noticed that many times along the path of his life,

there was only one set of footprints.

He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it:

"Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,

there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why when I needed you the most you would leave me."

The Lord replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial

and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."

Spirituality

I started this as my second blog, to talk about the Bible and to talk about my own spiritual journey, because I believe that whether you believe in God or not, your on a spiritual journey, but it's up to you to figure it out.

Who knows maybe I will open some eyes or simply just add insight, but I hope that I can make this blog become popular, but it's whatever happens :)