Dealing with Hurtful People

There are always people who make you want to back hand them. Sometimes even punch them because they feel as though they can talk to people however they want and still be treated with kindness. News flash its not that kind of party.

But its important to shake your head at them. There is no need to become violent with them it is enough to take them for face value and treat them as such. I know this message is contradicting to how Jesus treated his traitors especially Judas.

The Lord knew that Judas would give him to his enemies for a bag of coins, but he continued to break bread with him, Jesus never turned his back on him or sneered at him. But one thing that is certain is that Jesus was hurt deeply.

On my journey to do what is right I find it hard to deal with people who hurt me. I refuse do deal with people that want to hurt me, so I keep them at arms length in every way possible. I am not the type of person that can turn my emotions on and off; its one or the other. I either feel indifferent toward you or I care about you there is rarely an in between when it comes to me.

It has been said that the opposite of love is not hate, but indifference and I believe that because whether you love someone or hate them, emotions are involved, but when you are indifferent to someone there is a lack of emotion toward that person, you can hurt them without caring as to how they will feel about it. When you don't care about someone than you write that person off and rarely look back.

This is the way I usually deal with people, I emotionally cut them off from me. I can do this without a second thought and once I have done it, its hard to undo it; maybe that's why I'm trying hard not to do it, but old habits are a struggle to break.

Hopefully God will help me to work on this habit of mine, since he is the only one that can cause change. For now until I achieve it, I will simply keep people at arm length and give them a blank stare when they question why I am not close with them.

God is Very Much a Father

Okay you know the saying becareful what you ask for? Yeah well I've noticed something about myself, I ask for too dang-on much stuff and most of it is ridiculous! I did something very stupid and now its about to be out there. (No nothing crazy get your mind out that gutter!)
I wanted to get info on something and I got more than I bargained for. I wish I could let the whole situation with the guy go, but something in me (that stupid something) refuses to let sleeping dogs lay.
I wish I could drop it but I've already shown my afro so I might as well deal with everything that's going to come at me. When God says to leave something alone he means it, but when you keep asking, he will give it to you and watch you mess up horribly, but the best thing, he will sustain you through it no matter what.
So I'm getting my punishment soon from him, I can feel it, but he will be gentle with it, I hope :/